I Am Not My Own

I Am Not My Own

Be still, my throbbing hand
Get control over yourself
Constant moving
A reminder that my life
Is not my own
That is folly
Am I no more than the sum of my circumstances?
Diseases that have taken over this body
That used to be mine
Now belongs to the hands of the doctors...

© Timothy E. Wahlstrom May 03,  2026

I wrote this as my right hand shook uncontrollably with Parkinson's Disease one morning at 2:30 AM. Unable to sleep, I am awake and at the keyboard. Writing about my PD and its effects on my life. Is the disease in control? Am I in control? We hand ourselves over to doctors and surgeons who take us into their hands and minds for answers, healing, and cures, in the hope that we can get ourselves back and be in control again, if we ever were in the first place.

When Rain Reigns

When Rain Reigns

When rain reigns
I sigh
I long to see blue sky
Eating tomato soup and grilled cheese
Rain go away
Please
Staying warm under a patchwork quilt my Grandmother made
I long to sit
Under a tree
In its shade

Renaming this Blog

Cosmic Timmy, Expressing Myself in Orange

Renaming this Blog to

Cosmic Timmy, Expressing Myself in Orange ©

Referring to no rhyming words with orange.

The orange trim and stitching on my Subaru Forrester Sport.

The orange temples on my prescription eyeglasses.

The Cosmic Orange iPhone 17 Pro I purchased along with a Burnt Sienna  Tech Woven MagSafe Case, a Fine Woven Apple Wallet with Find My in orange, and the Crossbody Strap in orange.

2025 Bark at the Parx, Let the Ears Fly

Barx in the Parx, Let The Ears Fly – benefiting the Tri-State Bassett Hound Rescue 

Start at 2:27:29 – 2:32:15 Swede Heat 1

Ruby Heat 7 3:27:27

Swede Finals  4:19:00

Swede came in 2nd place in the first heat to qualify for the Finals. Karen fell, tripped by a dog after Swede’s race. She was caught on camera and hit her head. She was wearing the GoPro on her head, but unfortunately, it was not recording. Swede did not place in the Final but had a good run. I had to carry him to the Starting Line. Ruby was in the 7th heat and did not place. The dogs that won had an unfair head start. They were way out in front of the actual gate. She did receive the Crowd Favorite Award for barking the whole time Swede was racing in the final.

Swede and Ruby after a long day at Barx at the Parx racing.

Karen

Karen

Karen is Caring

Karen is Sharing

Karen is Loving

Karen is Forgiving

Karen is Gracious

Karen is Positive

Karen is Encouraging

Karen is my Love

Karen in my Juneaboo

Karen is my Doest Dearling

© Timothy E. Wahlstrom, June 1, 2025

Inspired by:

Peace Is Every Step

Meditation on Love

"If love is in our hearts, every thought, word, and deed can bring about a miracle. Because understanding is the very foundation of love, words and actions that emerge from our love are always helpful." -- Thich Nhat Hanh

Karen is my loving wife whom I love, whole-heartedly.

The capital letters when rearranged spell -

PEDLLJFSGC

Pedal Just For Shits & Giggles See.

And that is what we are doing today in the Tour de Belt benefitting the Capital Area Greenbelt Association.

Thinking Less

Thinking Less

We are thinking all of the time.
Most of our thinking is useless.
Dwelling on the past.
Worrying about the future.
A waste of time.
And we miss out on
The present moment.

© Timothy E. Wahlstrom March 23, 2025

Freya

Freya
Parody of John Mayer’s Daughters September 9, 2003
by Timothy E. Wahlstrom, February 9, 2025
Dedicated to my first Granddaughter, Freya Sophie Muench

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But I’m just so amazed
Now, all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand by her crib with my heart in my hand
Now I'm starting to see
This baby’s got so much yet to see

Grandfathers, be good to Granddaughters
Granddaughters will love like you do
Granddaughters become lovers who turn into Grandmothers
So Grandmothers be good to Granddaughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been living in
Since the day she saw the first light of day
Now we’re here bringing up the girl we love

Grandfathers, be good to Granddaughters
Granddaughters will love like you do
Granddaughters become lovers who turn into Grandmothers
So Grandmothers be good to Granddaughters too
So Grandmothers be good to Granddaughters too
So Grandmothers be good to Granddaughters too
So Grandmothers be good to Granddaughters too

© Timothy E. Wahlstrom, February 9, 2025

The Earth is Nourished






The Earth is Nourished

The Earth is Nourished


It has already begun to rain.

The Earth is being nourished.

Plants and animals are getting what they need to grow.

I am tired. 

I slept too much yesterday. 

I did not sleep enough last night. 

I barely did anything all day.

The sky is turning darker.

I am having trouble seeing what I am writing.

I turn on a light.

Light is a precious gift.

It too nourishes the Earth, plant and animals.

I would have a very different life without light and water.

If any life at all.

Thank you for the rain.

Thank you for the light.


c Timothy E. Wahlstrom, August 18, 2024


	


	

			






	

		
I Sat Too Long
	


	
	

		

I Sat Too Long
 
I sat too long
I cannot move
Cry out in song
Begin in love
It won't be long
Or give a shove
Bang a gong
Rise above
You do belong
Stay with love
Continue in song
 
© Timothy E. Wahlstrom August 12, 2024

	


	

			






	

		
Find Rest in Sleep
	


	
	

		

Find Rest in Sleep
 
Find rest in sleep
There is no relief
Sink in deep
I have no belief
Do not weep
Only grief
Your soul to keep
Spit through my teeth
Give though steep
Delve beneath
Find rest in sleep
 
© Timothy E, Wahlstrom August 12, 2024
 
I wrote Find Rest in Sleep so that every other verse only really fits with every other one and was not written with the previous verse in mind. The odd verses are positive and the even verses are negative. The last words of the odd verses rhyme with the odd verses and even verses with the even ones.